do i remember...........
as the birthday rush is upon me starting in september, i always look back in astonishment at the changes that happen in that short year. griffin will be 5 on september 24th. i remember finding out he was coming like it was yesterday. in december 2002 my grandma passed away. in my grief i was very absent minded and that led to a less than perfect b.c. pill schedule for me. i remember vividly cleaning the house in early february and thinking "hmmmmm am i late?" i took a test, fully knowing it would be negative because there was no way that could happen....we werent' planning on number 3 until that summer or so.
hey...it took all of 2 seconds to see 2 pink lines!
i remember calling shane on his cell phone........"are you driving? pull over, pull over, i have something to tell you" i remember his chuckle, "it's great news baby, everything will be fine" because everyone knows, that is what shane always says to me when i am hysterical.
i remember thinking my grandma was probably laughing her ass off from heaven. and then i was sad knowing our baby would never know my grandma.
i remember knowing griffin was a boy before the ultrasound told me so. i remember being so sick for so long and feeling such relief when i knew it was close to him coming to be a part of our family. i remember arriving at the hospital after several failed attempts. i remember dr. villa coming to the hospital on his day off to deliver griffin. i remember the jokes he made that made me laugh so hard that everyone in the room yelled at me to stop so i didn't "shoot that baby across the room"
i remember it was cold outside and raining, strange for september. we had come to the hospital a little after 2:00 pm and he was born just after 8:00. i remember the nurse taking him from me because he wasn't breathing right and him in the NICU for 5 days. probably the worst 5 days i had experienced since my grandma died. the nurses told me dr. villa came to check on griffin every day. i remember being their one of the times they needed to find a vein for his IV and how helpless i felt and how many times the poked him and how much he wimpered. i remember finally telling them to stop and get kevin the neonatal guy. they put an iv in griffin's head. dr. villa called him my "unicorn" it wasn't funny until later.
i remember leaving the hospital without him.
i remember bringing him home.
some days i look at him and i see shane. some days i see a mini monster. some days i see the jim carrey side of him. and some days...
i see my unicorn.
4 comments:
Oh Susan. that was a beautiful tribute to Griffen.. it made me cry and chuckle!!
How sweet! Brought tears to my eyes!
thanks ladies ;-)
That was great Susan. You should put that in a baby book for him.
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